After He Left

It's been a while after he left this office...

The first day I came to the office after his departure, I felt something(or maybe specifically someone)'s missing...
I talk to myself... So this is how it feels...it feels helpless...
There were the times when I couldn't see him back then. However, this time, it feels different.
When I couldn't see him before, I knew I would see him later...
But now, I cannot see him and I know I won't be able to...

Nowadays, I'm still struggling to cope with this so-called-missing-ness...
It's like I just woke up from a very long nice dream.

Though we still communicate each other, there's a fear deep inside my heart...
I'm wondering in fear...how long this phase can last...
I'm too afraid to imagine another phase where we won't contact each other anymore and start to forget each other...
I really wish that we would never turn into strangers like all the memories we have do not exist...

I'm also wondering when will I pass this struggle 'coz I still turn my head to his empty seat everytime I pass by his room...
Moving on is never easy... I fully understand... Even to start move on looks impossible...